from the death notes / No. 3
the catalyst for this poem is from "Masquerade",
masks by Saul Steinberg, photographed by Inge Morath
In short order my father’s skin color
(I can't come around to calling it a "complexion"
and even "color" seems absurd)
descended from a sub-value of grey,
to the value of raw granite.
there’s a yellowing to the whites of his eyes,
his brow, a linear map running to somewhere in the distance,
his mouth seeking water, his expression clueless, absent and fatal.
––my visits to his hospital bedside got to where I could
distinguish the differences between his groans
of grief and his moans of pleasure.
––It was all in the tonal ranges;
the lower timbre pleasure, the higher timbre grief,
the middle timbre laying in the final exhaling of his lungs.
––I wondered during that last exhaling
if the middle timbre was an indication of him
dreaming about the hilarious house party
at the Gleason’s place on East Sedalia Street
in the summer of 1952, at which I’m often told
by surviving participants, he was the life of.
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