-part one / the beginning-
2/ 15/ '43
It’s a bright, sudden light.
a harsh light.
a light like to burn my eyes.
maybe it's heaven’s light––
could be the 24 hour snack emporium's
light of florescence, the buzzing light that never sleeps,
not for Christmas, not for holy days of obligation––
not even for when J.F.K. gets popped, for chrissakes!
and me, a standard issue male,
7 pounds plus an ounce calculated fo be up to 7:
an abstract creature–– twice
removed descendant of
Lucca, northern province where
our cousins are blonde-headed
just south of Switzerland
my mother would come to say
wrapped-up in a warped geography,––
and me, born in time to make early
reservations to Mussolini’s inversion,––
and me, a slimy pink bauble wailing
to be pushed back to the inside as a sterilized
maniac slaps me senseless into the dry
cruel new word.
February 15, 1943:
Truesdale Hospital
Fall River, Massachusetts,––
and me, slithering my way between
common anesthesia and thalidomide
the miracle drug to help her relax a little,
take it easy, kick back, it's a boy,––
this, long before zip codes
long before area codes––
a time when
telephones were heavier
than volume 18: "M to Mexico"
inconvenient, but––
you got to where you otherwise
wouldn’t want to be;
a place at the end of the line,
a time when the Moon
was considered a deep sky object
and neighborhood kids were doomed
by the physical force of domestic politics
to Saturday morning confessionals
before being strapped-in for the afternoon
accordion lessons.
my father,
a non-recipient
of the Congressional Medal of Honor
had just stepped out of World War 2
Minneapolis, Minnesota,
bringing home
his souvenir MP armband
and his bully club
a highly lacquered
two-footer
with attached
rawhide loop at the base
used for
clubbing stability and swinging
accuracy.
my mother
had her work cut out for her,––
and me, acting the part of a stencil.
she’d done this
once before, and after me
she’d do it again for the last time,
but this time, taking time off to finish me off,
with no gratuity as "maternity leave with pay"
at the sweltering Sagamore textile mill in the early days of 1943...
end of part one